Thursday, November 19, 2009 @6:53 AM
extreme saddness all of a sudden. this kind of feeling is so sudden and so overwhelming. Is there anyone out there that will care for me ... ? where are you, i need you so much now. rights you are gone, you left me hurted. its hurting again, i miss you. this feeling is terrible. i tell myself i am fine without you.
I don't want to be alone. is there any chance you come back to me ? hahaha.. wei jie your so naive, she will come back to you, in your dreams. so when you wake up you will only feel more pain. wei jie, i have no idea what i have done to make you deserve such pain, if i can i will take all your pain away for myself. oh rights ... its me for myself, i for me and myself for i now. wei jie im sorry i can't help you, no matter what i do you will still be hurt and sad. i am useless and really helpless. Maybe thats why i deserve such pain.
how i wish i can photoshop my memories, so those horrible memories will stop haunting me.
how i wish i can photoshop my emotions, so these horrible feelings will stop hurting me.
i want to hold your hands,
i want to hug you,
i want to kiss you,
but i want you most.
your not coming back i know.
i miss you
and i will miss you,
i love you
and i will love you,
but i will try to forget all about you.
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, November 14, 2009 @3:53 PM
many things happen from happy times to miserable moments like now. I want to share those happy moments with people that is reading my blog, but right now those memories whenever i think about it my heart hurts.
why must such things happen in my life. do i not deserve to have happiness that last forever ? or my right one is not you ? I trust you and yet somehow my trusted was betrayed, i let you have fun with your friends cause i do not want to be so clingy, im trying my best to be everything you need. In the end such things happen.
nowadays, sometimes you just make me so angry but i just could'nt bring myself to start flaming. we are all in pain, why ? because you cannot make up your mind. why can't you make up your mind ? because you do not want to lose anyone. You say you want to be the only one suffering, but hey look around i am suffering hell. Im trying my best to solve everything here, but this is'nt how it should be done. This is our relationship and this is our problem, but why am i the only one trying ? Im trying too hard, everytime i do something it's killing my dignity and pride. but in the end whatever i did not only it does not solve the problem, i made myself feel so bad and so small. After i did so much and tried so much, nothing was done, why ? Because you are not supporting me, tell me if im wrong here. Good job now i feel worst than a fucking retard at least a fucking retard doesnt feel shit.
I am crying, my heart is bleeding, my soul is crumbling and im going crazy just by thinking of you. what you do is only telling me not to. I don't want to see things like " i dont want you to suffer" "dont cry ):" cause i am already suffering and i am crying. I know somethings cannot be forced but i really wish to see those 8 letters 3 words which comes from your bottom of your heart. You can do so many things to end everyone's suffering yet you choose to do nothing.
Despite losing everything now, my mind , my heart and my soul i will continue to go on. Im close to the end of this dark tunnel, but all i can see is small fragment of light. Even its just a small drop of hope, i will cling on to it. Till the last bit of light is shollowed by the darkness. I will not give up. My feelings for you will be my sword, my faith in you will be my shield and my trust in you will be my armour.
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 @11:17 PM
Ok im just happy. All her fault (:!
shall blog other times =x!
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, August 25, 2009 @7:28 PM
Holidays started and today is day1!
nothing-to-do-ness feelings
result : more thinking.
oh well i shall distract myself here abit.
yesterday was the last of my exams can only say i been back to hell =x.so after that when off with kiki and her friends as well as yuuki to amk hub,as kiki frens were looking for job. ate pepper lunch there and after awhile
we left amk so kiki frens left and i followed the other 2 to suntec. so took a walk around than they headed for arcade. lols im not an arcade gamer so yea i didnt play anything. ok im not being sexist here but i still think guys as a majority is still better at gaming =x! after arcade they headed for gym. As we promised to go for the japanese film fest together for the free movie, pretty much i stayed and waited for them. thanks yuuki for lending me your lappy(it has internet!)and teenage (: 2hours wasnt so long after flipping thru pages of teenage. I realise
something it doesnt change much, Dear Kelly is always the same. bought the girls cheese cakes(somehow 1 said its minty while another said its orangy) then we headed to singapore muesuem for japanese film fest. we end up late but luckily there were still sits, thou i wasnt sitting with them but thats not important (:! The movie we catched was "House" it was a very old japanese horror film like 32years back already? the CG is really funny infact the whole film is funny. its more like comedy than horror everyone was like laughing as well. so after the film while yuuki and i was like laughing kiki was emo-ing! she find it really scary! so we headed to plaza sing for dinner and
than its home.
now is 7th month on the chinese calender and 1 of the supposted rule is not to go home late. so here is the timing i reached home daily : 11+. ok lol im breaking the rule daily. ah but so many events being lined up! i also realise something. i have around 5 groups of friends 1:my secondary boy friends, 2:my T.W.O girl frens, 3:my 2 of my classmates, 4:Jcg jokers, 5: all the others that i did not mention but you know your my friendssssss (:! side track abit! I love you all!! so yea many groups of frens but not enuff time to delicate them for them. sorry for all the ps i will make it up for everyone ok (:? (after holiday that is!!!)
they say don't give up a garden for a flower.
i say giving up on you is giving up more than just a garden.
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, August 22, 2009 @9:29 AM
konbanwa minna san (:
had a wonderful day at changi japanese primary school today! its the yearly natsu matsuri! hahas first time attending this event! hmmm one thing i really like about this event is, it really give a very very festive feeling! when i step into the school i can already hear the drumming! its like oh my god! the crowd was great too even thou its alot of people and its really squeezy but i really like it alot! the place is warm i mean really warm! but i call it the warm of humans (:! everyone there is like so happy and not to mention lots of kiddies were there too and most of them were wearing yukata! very cute! so yea i love the atmosphere!
ah the food! haha im not sure about what others think but i really like the curry rice! its not the kind that is really sweet but its the kind that is abit sweet but not spicy kind! haha the mashy potato and the carrots ahhhhh so nice! haha it says curry chicken on the menu but its actually shredded chicken but still i like it alot! ahhhh blogging about it makes me hungry! lols ok moving on. games there are games booths but i didnt play any cause of the crazy queue ._. ok the performance was great ok not really great but its nice (:!
ok my fav part of the event! mass folk dance! OMG la! so fun ! again the atmosphere is just sugoi! so many ppl form a circle around the stage! too bad the bunch left before the dance or else im sure they will love it too! but haha despite that bunch that left there is still another bunch to join! so i joined up with that another bunch and we danced ! woooooo simple step but its really fun! haha of cause 3 of them was the dance that i did in school while the others was new to me! but haha its really easy to learn actually! ok la didnt manage to like dance perfectly for the rest but the 3 i know i really did well ok ? =P haha want learn ? i can teach !
ah but if i were to say friends made this event more than fun (: its might not be as fun as wat i had if u wonderful peoples out there wasnt my frens ! haha i hope u guys had as much fun as i do!
oh put aside that, i amazed i manage to only use $10 in the matsuri.
holiday soon. like in 3-4more days time
camp soon.
work ? soon i hope.
what else ? anime ?
ah anime ! lols princess lover
lols better not but haha its nice.
bakemonogatari also !
thats about it !
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, August 9, 2009 @6:33 AM
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY!
oh well y even bother blogging bout this right ?
nvm good news
my mum baked some brownies
yes brownies by mummy!
gonna slowly chew them down bit by bit
and enjoy every inch of it
muhahahahahhah!
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Thursday, August 6, 2009 @5:50 PM
Happy 18th Bday Nic!
omg sorry buddy, kinda forgot that it was ur bday.
and happy 17th Bday to Kiki! ( kinda late as well )
and oh! this one will be early!
happy Bday Zemin! (im afraid i forget this too)
and on another even lighter note!
holidays are soon! zomgwthbbq!
work ? most probably (:
cause staying at home will drive me crazy now.
work where still not sure thou. (hint: got job intro tell me horrrr)
but must be close to Pasir Ris ah!
AND OMG PEOPLE LISTEN TO THIS!!
MIO NENDOROIDS GOODSMILE HAS MADE IT!!
YAY!!! OMG OMG IM SOOOOO BUYING IT LARH!
than again ._. its not as moe as the mio in the anime
BUT BUT BUT STILL...
YAY!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA MIO!!! haha so many more happy thing to blog!
hmmm AHHHH folk dance!!!
it was short 3 days training or practice
awww kinda miss it right now!
it might have been short but but but it
was really fun and happy !
the whole performance i say its a sucess!
(thou my yukata is like dropping and i have to keep on pulling it up)
im sure next year will still have ! i will sooooo join it too (:!
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ba!
ahh somehow walking around campus with yukata on attracted so much attention
but yea its cool !
ok next next anime ?
HAHAHHA of cos!! i haven been blogging much on animes for sooo long already!
wat first wat first omg omg omg so many i didnt blog! ok because i cant decided
which anime i should blog i shall not blog any! (zetsubou sensei taught me that)
ahahahha ZETSUBOUSHITAAAAAAA!!!!
2 weeks and 1 week.
♥ and i stand in the
wonder of your love
